READY TO WRITE AGAIN

Hi All

I am back after been missing for 6 years....work just caught up with...at times even overtaking me...

Today on Christmas day year 2020, my neurons got connected between the old grey cells...that i just remembered that i used to write (in not so many words...or articles) in here to express my mind...to myself actually...my personal pat on the back thingy...

But yeah...i think i will start to write again....

DARE TO CHANGE

Hi guys and gals...wow...it has been such a long time that I have written anything here...

So much has happened....so much...just over a couple of years...

How I felt like I have aged so much...

What I did in the past...the norm...has changed...I have finally decided to step out of that comfort zone...yeah, I was kicked in the butt by a good friend who thinks that I should move on...to greener pastures...if one can call it just that...

Greener or not...its all subjective...relative...but I guessed one has to have faith...be optimistic...rezeki is in God's hands...yakeen....

It all started back in the early 2000's...when I felt that my career is going downhill...like I wasn't meant to be 'fast forward' anymore...like some stagnant  water or something...like the world just refused to even revolve around me...and I thought to myself...hey, what's going here...?

 

But I wasn't brave enough to leave my 'favourite spot' for fear I would lose the meaning of my very presence in this world...fear of the unknown really...

 

In 2009...my good friend virtually dissected my teeny weeny brain and plugged in some new wires...new circuit breakers...hoping that I would give my life a new outlook...

 

I stepped out...of my comfort zone...one tiny step at a time...a tiny step...then became strides...bold strides...and I never looked back...

 

 

 

I wanna make changes....I wanna be me.......



THAT SPECIAL SOMETHING.......

                                                                                            

Westlife - Flying Without Wings - Lyrics                                                                                        

                                                                                           

                                                                                           

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry
You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you

In any given time or place

It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings 

Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends

I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

DWYL LWYD

     Hai kawan2....i just learnt a new acronym ~ DWYL LWYD which simply means DO WHAT YOU LOVE and LOVE WHAT YOU DO... personally, i think it says a lot despite the fact that they are mere everyday words...i think it means that i am to love what i am doing right now...and at the same time to pursue what i love to do....no? 

      Whatever it is, it still makes so much sense!!!!  Guys, people keep telling me that life is short...so lets just DWLY LWYD lah, huh?....wow, sounds so Welsh-ish....
    

      Know where i picked that up...at LAT, the Musical which is now showing at Istana Budaya (which is another thing that i love to do whenever there is opportunity and financial-ability)...saw my first play the 39 Steps (Alfred Hitchcock) in New York in 2008...just love it!!!!  Simply hillarious and superbly done by only 4 characters... salute... encore!!!



    Anyway, talk abt acronyms...it reminds me of a professor that i met in United States who just loves to amuse us with all these acronyms..TINSTAFL.. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS FREE LUNCH and...hmmm... dear me...its amnesia time again...duh... Okay...okay...before i go off tangent...let me dwell on this issue just a teeny weeny (?) bit more... I am certain that in life (or whats left of it)... there are so many things that we want and love to do and more importantly, we should...





    I,  for one, have always wanted to experience the cherry (or sakura) blossom....and i thank God that i have the opportunity to sample it during my short stay in Washington DC...believe me, its so amazing and beyond words...to witness all those trees with white-pinkish toppings....its really mind-blowing!!!  Errr...did i just say 'beyond words'? hahaha....








      And just last week, a friend of mine took me up in the hot air balloon....his friend after knowing that i am a pilot commented that 'Emilia, this is too slow for you'....its not the speed i convinced him, rather that different sense of freedom...i know...i do fly around in planes of different speed...fast ones...slow ones...but in a confined space...


     I wanna feel that breeze in my face (mind you, i think i did see my friend sweating all over...and i too, did feel the heat from the blast above me... hahaha)...still...it was stupendous!!  Before this i didnt think much about the effort of flying a hot air balloon... kawan2, it wasn't a simple task...pre and post flying....i appreciate it even more so now...great job Tom (err...that's my friend's name)....



    What i wanna mention next is probably one of my all time fav DWYL!!!  Yup, roller coasters!!!  Remember my 6 kids?  My task is to make each and everyone of them an avid roller-coaster proponent (for lack of better words...always have problems with my vocab..so guys, i will just throw in any words that cross my mind...and pray hard that you know what i am trying to say...of coz you do...never doubted that....hahaha).   

     I love to test myself and find out just what are my limitations....i know i am almost 50 (sorry for mentioning it for the umpteenth time!!)...dont know whether my heart can still take in all this...but its all in the state of mind....remember that?....dear God, spare my heart and body...hehehe...

      Guys...we have to live our life to the fullest...not everybody gets to do what they love...i didn't get to become a civil engineer...but I have come to love flying...and its now part of who i am...but at the same time i want to pursue what i love to do...my passion for adventures mostly... and i think so should everyone else....its sad for any of us to leave what we love to do...even if its becoz our loved ones insist upon it (for as long as they are good ones, i better be clear here)...coz we are entitled to it....don't you think so?  I strongly believe that at the end of the day, it will only make us complete.............

My Childhood Days

Oh, how i just love my childhood days...so vivid in my mind!!! Reminiscing the past...i have so much that i wanna share...the best 6 years of my life (i am talking abt the age between 6 and 12 here)...

When i was 6 years old (i dont think i should go to the years before that for fear that my memory might fail me terribly...hahaha) my parents sent me to Yoke Meng Kindergarten, Rawang, Selangor...where my first official education began...can't say i remember much about the kids, the class or the surroundings except that there was this dashing looking boy (dear me, at 6 years old?)...hmm..what happened to the rest of my memory...??? hahaha...oh, but i do remember how my kindergarten teacher would look me up everytime she was in town...till i was in my early teens...

Then i was sent to Sekolah Rendah Jenis Kebangsaan (Inggeris) Rawang...quite a distant from my house (during those days lah...but my dad believed that we kids would benefit a lot by going to an 'english' school)...boy, do i love going to school those days...my mum said that even in sickness i still insisted upon going...frankly, i didn't want to miss a single day for fear that my friends might be having fun without my very presence....!!

My love for adventures prompted me to form a small 'all gals' group (and boy, how the boys envied us!! thats the whole point anyway... hahaha)...just like Enid Blyton's Secret Seven...i was hoping to solve mysteries and riddles (as if there was any!!!)...yup, a definite case of too much Enid Blyton's mystery books!!! Talk about my readings...i travelled through age by reading Beano/Dandy Comic books (hey, blame my mum for making me read them!!!... naaa...thanks Mum...thats where my passion for cartoons comes from...even now i still love them)...then books by Enid Blyton...then i started reading Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys....Agatha Christie....Sherlock Holmes (my all time favourite!!!)...that probably explained why i am all glued to AXN.....hey, i have not forgotten who Snow White, Rapunzel, Beauty and others are...oh, and Pak Pandir, Lebai Malang, Nenek Kebayan.....

When not in school, i would spent time fishing and climbing trees...sorry guys, i mean i did grow up in a kampung where opportunities as such came aplenty...rambutan trees...rambai trees...jambu trees.... manggis trees...no, definitely not kelapa trees (its not ladylike lah..).... fishing near the river behind my house (trying hard not to fish floating 'poopsicles'... hehehe)...looking for spiders to put in matchboxes (all geared for spider fightings)....playing in the rain (i would sit in the little drain that surrounded my house...sort of building a little 'dam'...hmmm...a civil engineer in the making) and playing konda kondi, congkak using biji getah, making rifles out of branches with putik jambu as bullets..wow, that was so military of me!!!

My...i can go on and on about my childhood days....there were so many things to do!!! If given the chance to make a wish come true, i would probably ask to be 'teleported' back to my childhood days...with virtually nothing to worry (except for the usual problems of zits)...i know not everybody out there can relate to all this...but if you can, i think we should be thankful coz we have just experienced something out of this world...and we should really cherish these moments....

People do say that whichever part of life you remember most is the time you enjoy most...and i tend to agree...totally!!!!

Dare to Age

I have come to a point in life where age is something i would rather not think...let alone talk...people say that they are just numbers...as long as it doesn't equate to your IQ...hahaha....i wished!!!

Aging is just another process that i need to go in life...but i want to do it gracefully and most importantly i want my life to be meaningful as i aged..i want to be somebody who is definitely strong mentally and emotionally... Physically? Well, lets say, healthy is the word of the day...guys, i just want to be able to look back without any regrets...

Its kind of scary really to think that i am coming very closely to being in the 5 series (and i am definitely not refering to BMWs)...half a century (dear me!!)...I like to think that i have achieved so much in life (which may be little to some since its all very relative)...yet, have i? After kindergarten, primary and secondary education, i had the opportunity to study abroad (thanks to Malaysian Government)...5 years in UK pursuing my ambition to become a Civil Engineer...but that didn't happen...thanks to global recession!!  But 5 years in UK taught me a lot about life...trust me...a lot!!! Hmmm...may be i will share with you guys one of these days, huh?

As mentioned in my 'Possibilities in Life', i was a Civil Engineer turned Military Pilot...any regrets? NEVER!!! I am married with 6 kids...any regrets? NEVER!!!  Of coz, till now i still go thro challenges in bringing them up...but who isn't? Amidst trying to juggle between building a career as a Military Officer and Pilot, i am also trying to be a decent mum to my kids...easy? difficult?  Its all in the state of mind (yup, my favourite motto and principle in life)...a glass is half empty or half full will depend on how i look at it, right? It will be my choice whether i wanna be pessimistic or optimistic...

Eventhough i am almost reaching 50 (boy, do i have to mention this again?),  i realised that there are still things that i have not done in life and still look forward to doing them...like a ride in a hot air balloon...scuba diving... handgliding...ultralights...rock climbing...riding scooters underwater...travel the world...even bake pastries (hey what can i say, i just love them!!!)...etc...etc...etc...my god, that is only half of them!!!

But having said all this, i am also trying very hard not to leave behind another important aspect in my life...to strengthen my faith in God...which probably should be the top priority at this point in life...to have that inner sense of happiness and peacefulness....  

Suffice to say that as i aged...i wanna be somebody of strong character (and healthy)...yet a humble servant of God....isn't that the true sense of aging?

Possibilities in Life

In life..nothing is certain...one can strive to be anything...anybody...its all in the state of mind..talking from experience, never in my life have i ever imagined that one day i will be a pilot...well...may be there was a time...

As a child, all i remembered was that i have always wanted to be different...may be even now...how at times i would wait till everybody has ordered in a restaurant...only then would i say mine...just to be different...

May be that contributed to what i am right now...a kampung gal turned a military pilot...anything is possible once we set our mind and heart...a friend once told me 'you have to know what you want in life...and you must be willing and brave enough to take that step and make it happen'....and of coz, God willing...

Just tell yourself that you need to work hard and aim high...if all that fails..at least you can tell the world that...you did give your best shot...